one of those days

It's one of those days.  It's been a really good day....in many, many ways.  I went running, worked out at the gym, rode my bike, went rock climbing for Ben's b-day...and even went on a date.

But I also had a meeting with Jeanne about Nepal.
Well, it's not looking promising.  I'm not giving up yet, but I've heard from two different sources that there are no teaching positions in the school at Scheer Memorial Hospital.  None of the full time missionaries have any students in the school, so they are not having SM's teach at the school.  I don't even understand entirely what that means.

But like I said, I'm not giving up yet.  I'd really like to work in the hospital in Nepal, actually, this has been my goal all along.  But in the past this has not been an option, so....

I haven't looked into any other SM options very seriously.  Because I want to live in Nepal.  I'm obsessed with the country.  Which brings me to another point.  I've never even really wanted to SM any place besides Nepal.  Do I want to SM?  Do I want to travel for a year?  For a quarter?  Do I want to learn another language?  Would I want to do any of these things by myself?  Do I want to go to PT school this year?

I called my mom this evening.  She wants to know what I'm doing with my life.  I told her everything about today.  Probably shouldn't have.  If I'm spending so much time exercising and going to birthday parties...am I studying?  Mom, not every day is like this.  "Jenny, if you decide to go to PT school next year, I am going to freak out."  (She thinks I will decide a week before it starts, and she has good reason to believe I would make a decision that last-minute-like.  However, Loma Linda wouldn't let me decide that late...)

I want to go to Nepal.  And I am oh so tired.