I am so looking forward to a new start.  A new quarter, or actually, just Christmas break.  That's closer and more fun.

This quarter started out so good.  So much exercise.  An existent social life.  Time to be spontaneous.  Time in general.

Now I am sitting at the opposite end of the spectrum.  And I don't really know how it ended up this way.  Except that it is the end of the quarter, and it's always a busy time, I guess.  I exercise by walking up and down the stairs in the library....back and forth between the stacks and the periodicals.  I almost started talking to the books on the shelf a little bit ago....haha....well, not really, but I do feel that I know my books better than my friends.  And my devotionals are spent ineffectively half-sleeping, half-reading.

In Isaiah 55:1-2, God calls us to him, and he says, "Why spend money on what is not bread, and your labor on what does not satisfy? Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good, and your soul will delight in the richest of fare."  Which reminds me of another something I read once.

"We try too hard to take care of ourselves - we are uneasy and greatly lack a firm trust in God.  Many worry and work, contrive and plan, fearing they may suffer need.  They cannot afford time to pray or to attend religious meetings and, in their care for themselves, leave no chance for God to care for them.  And the Lord does not do much for them, for they give him no opportunity.  They do much for themselves, and believe and trust in God too little."

I am an organizer; a planner-aheader.  And I'd like to think that I'm pretty good at fending for myself.  But in reality, it stresses me out.  I'd rather that God take over, but it's hard sometimes I guess.  

Message for today:
Dear Jenny,
Stop trying to fend for yourself.  I am so much better at it than you.  Give me some space to help you out, and you will be satisfied.
-God